Loving G-d: Help me clear my mind and my thoughts of ideas and theories that are in conflict with the Torah, in order that I should not sully my intelligence and sensitivity with sinful thoughts and desires, or sour my mind with erroneous theories. Free me of all doubts and skepticism, and let my mind and my thoughts be pure, clear and holy.
Give me the strength to fight against the bad thoughts, doubts and sinful desires that come to confuse me. Let me keep them out of my mind. Let me fight them down and drive them away completely. Let them have no power to enter my consciousness at all, and let me sanctify my and my thoughts at all times.

Please, HaShem: You know the tremendous damage caused in the upper worlds by every single bad thought, and even more so by evil doubts that go against the very foundations of Torah faith, G-d forbid. Such doubts cause a flaw in all the worlds, and have the power to uproot a person from the Source of life, until becomes extremely difficult for him to repent and rediscover the path of life. You alone know the full extent of the damage caused on the highest of levels by every evil thought and idea that comes into the mind.

You also know the tremendous power such thoughts have over our minds, and their ability to confuse us. We are under constant pressure to succumb to them. I have sinned in this many times. I have failed to protect myself against such thoughts or fight them, and I have caused tremendous damage to my own mind by the evil thoughts I have allowed to enter. My whole mind is full of alien thoughts. I have allowed my mind to be filled with forbidden desires and skepticism, and allowing myself to fall prey to all kinds of meaningless distractions.

Not only have I not tried hard enough to fight against such thoughts. I have opened myself to them, making no effort at all to push them out. I have not followed the advice given in Your holy Torah to at least sit passively rather than willfully entertain sinful thoughts: "sit and do nothing." I have not listened to my teachers.

How many of my days have gone to waste because of confused and evil thoughts. "I am sinking in the depths of the mud with nothing to support me; I have come into the deepest water and the current is sweeping me away." My mind is such a tun-noil of evil thoughts and confusion that it is extremely hard for me to fight them even when I want to.

"HaShem, You know my folly, no sin is not hidden from You." I come before You prostrated, humbled, begging and supplicating like a poor man at the door, sighing and beaten down, asking, requesting and begging as a free gift and an act of mercy that You should show me Your wonderful love and kindness and take me out of my darkness into the light. Help me to sanctify my thoughts today and forever.  Amen.

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